So, as usual, i start with quite a strange title for my latest blog entry…well, not strange when you know why, but strange without context! [NB: Let it Enfold You is the title of the album i'm listening to [[Senses Fail]].
So, whats gone off since I last wrote in here…actually, suprise suprise, not a lot. Ooh, i have finished my fourth piece of uni work though, which is kind of a big deal. In true Wasley fashion, i decided at the last minute [one week till deadline] to completely start my script from scratch, not only starting fresh, but with a completely different idea. Instead of writing my own episode of Shameless for the theatre, i decided to adapt Kevin Smith’s ‘Clerks’ for the theatre *insert huge smile here!*
I got my half an hours worth of script rattled off in an afternoon, and sent it off to my tutor, who should hopefully have read it by now. I’ve gotta get a copy of the film to him so he can watch it to see how i adapted it, but other than that, it should mean i’ve finished and passed [with flying colours may i add] my first year of uni =D
Work was quite shoddy at the weekend, but not for any particular reason. Just not much happened i guess, and sometimes the quiet days are worse than the hectic ones. Becky ended her shift early, leaving in floods of tears on sunday, i think someone said he nannan had passed away. Not that she’d ready this to know, but i’m thinking about her. I remember when my grandad died, i just felt numb. Didn’t really cry or get angry or anything, just sorta didn’t feel a thing. Went back out and relaxed with my gf at the time. It took a couple of days for it to hit me, then it all came flooding out in one tidal wave of emotion…
Bank holiday Monday wasn’t really that exciting, on account of me doing hardly anything all day. Spent far too much time playing on football manager [i swear to god, it's unhealthy the amount of time i spend on that game!]
Today was similar, although i did have to nip to donni at one point to get the next months bus pass sorted. Got a couple of dvd’s from hmv in the sale while i was there. Got a live Steve Coogan dvd with two shows on it for £6 and the Audrey Tatou film “A Very Long Engagement” for £3; score.
A Very Long Engagement sort of brings back memories for me. Was one of the films i went to see with Nat while we were ‘together’. We’ve all got those thought provoking things right? With me it’s “You Could Be Mine” by Guns n Roses, A Very Long Engagement, the tunnel i have in my left ear, stupid stuff like that…When i went through the big change in my life about 18 months ago, i sort of distanced my self from all things Nat, because simply put, i just didn’t wanna remember any of it. It’s weird ya know, i mean, me and her were a LONG time ago now, but sometimes, when i think about it all, i cant stop my self from smiling about stuff. Still, i guess that’s the case about all the people who come into your life and change it forever right? I mean, there’s even times when i look at the time me and kim were together and i still smile about it, even though i dont actually know why we were together anymore.
I sometimes feel like i’m missing out on things in life, missing experiences, missing out on excitement that i could be enjoying, but then i realise how happy i actually am in my life these days. I dont find my self wanting things i can have anymore, because i’ve come to terms with being who i am, and if you ask me, that’s something to smile about…you can have all the mopey in the world, or have as many beautiful women on your arms as you want, but that doesn’t guarantee that you’re gonna be happy with your life. It’s a nice thought that i can be happy being on my own and just ‘being’ as it were.
Anyway, i’ve had enough deep and meaningful for one night, so i’m gonna put an end to my mumbling.
Remember, be excellent to each other
x
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